I'm Actually Much Better These Days

You're not going to believe this: young me would be amazed by how much current me has her shit together. 😂

What Happens When You Let the Cat Out?

Once you let the cat out of the bag, does it chill tf out, or does it wreak havoc? Maybe it depends on the cat. 🤔

Get The Bigger Picture

Reminding myself: when you find yourself ruminating, there's a good chance you're too zoomed in. Mix things up. Climb a mountain. Back away til you can see the bigger picture and reassess. More often than not, you'll see your focus was on the wrong things all along.

Dream: Albert, My Teeth, and Going Down in a Plane with Country Music

The night before last, I woke up from this vivid dream: I was in my actual house with Sean, but it was located in my old hometown, Merced, CA. My mom and siblings lived here, but I'd moved away years prior, and Sean and I were just visiting. Sean and I had our bedroom there in the dream, but one of my sisters had just moved all of my things in it around to doll the room up so she could hijack it and get all sexy for her Twitch stream there. (Not an actual thing btw, so don't go looking for my sister's imaginary, sexy Twitch. 😂) All of a sudden, my teeth started breaking, as they do in dreams. Both Sean and my tooth problem ceased to exist in this dream world a moment later though (as if they'd never existed). 

Merced being a small town, it wasn't too surprising when I went downstairs and saw one of my exes standing in the entryway with two of his friends. Apparently, they were all there to help my mom with a few things. In reality, this ex, whose first night spent with me was my first night ever getting drunk, was one who'd anchored me when I felt lost but who I'd treated terribly, thought of as a sort of crutch, only run to and given the time of day when things went wrong for me elsewhere, and abandoned whenever I was back on my feet. I hadn't changed at all in my dream; I gave the guy a lonnnnnng hug before heading to the kitchen to do the dishes. He came in to help me. Suddenly, the song Tequila by Dan + Shay started playing in the dream and continued to repeat until I woke up. (The song actually didn't strike me as at all relevant to what was going on in the dream. It just randomly happened to come on at this time and stayed on til I woke up.) I started holding my ex's hand. (Nope, I don't have an urge to do this. That ship has long since sailed.)

My family ceased to exist in the dream at this point. Suddenly, my house was a plane and we were in a bad storm. I think my ex ceased to exist then or I just didn't notice one way or another. I rushed to my seat, buckled, and started filming on my phone, as you do. The flight got somewhat bumpy, strong wind pushed the plane backward and eventually down, out of the air and into a large canal in middle of town. The plane started filling with water. I woke up.

No, you may not have the past couple minutes of your life back. 

The song in my dream: Dan + Shay - Tequila

Defensiveness Creates the Enemies You Imagine

Sometimes, the only reason no one likes you is because you go around acting like no one likes you. If you quit being so damn defensive, assuming the world's out to get you and treating everyone accordingly, you just might make some friends.