Feeling Nostalgic

I had another friendly, 100% platonic dream about an ex and some friends again last night, and now I'm feeling even more nostalgic than usual. I'm probably always going to care a lot for everyone I've ever cared for before, and I miss seeing all their faces in person. Most of the time these days, I'm preoccupied and don't think about it much. It's not a good or bad feeling — just one that kind of takes me away. Though the intensity of my feelings toward people changes, it's somewhat rare that most types of feelings I have for them do. 

Don't get me wrong; I don't want to date all my exes again. I can't stop caring about the happiness and well-being of most of them and the friends that have come and gone in my life though. It's funny, I've only ever been in love with two people, but I feel like pieces of my heart belong to so many. 

Sometimes, I worry about meeting new people because I doubt I have the capacity to care about anyone else. I've been continuously wrong about that so far though.

Damn COVID-19 got me all sappy today. 😂

But it's not all roses. I've known plenty of assholes too, and they can go get fucked in the ass 1 Man 1 Jar style.